TOM
It's not what I thought it would
be. I never felt both joy and fear
at once! I just can't...stop
smiling. Until I think of the
medical bills, clothing, schools,
orthodontics...I needed braces, but
Candice seems to have good teeth,
praise God. And then there are all
the first times. First time he
falls down. First time he walks.
First time he loses a tooth. His
first report card...first
girl...first heart break. God, I
can't ever think about his college
right now. Except that it's going
to be Notre Dame! Football
scholarship. I'm scared. I feel
like I don't even know what I'm
doing. Me, responsible for another
life when I'm not sure whether its
wipe my nose, blow my ass or wipe
my ass and blow my nose. What will
I say to him when he comes to me
after someone has hurt him? Or if
he falls out of a tree? Or comes
home all bloody from roller
bladeing or God knows what. There
is something I do know. I'm not
going to be the old man my father
was. I won't tell him he's stupid
or lazy, or "use the brain God gave
ya". I won't speak to my son like
that. I won't break his spirit.
I'll be there to build him up when
he's down. I'll be there to tell
him he can do anything if he works
hard enough. And I'll hug
him...and kiss him...and I won't
throw my shoe at him if he crosses
in front of the TV during a game.
I won't kick him or slap him or
send him to his room and leave him
alone in the dark. What kind of
way is that to develop and nurture
a life?
Pause
TOM
I do know that I'll talk to him. I
will not ignore my son, my child.
I'm going to be a big part of my
kid's life. I know I won't always
know the right thing to do. But
knowing what not to do? Now that's
where I kick ass.
The song "Five O ' Clock Whistle" by Mavis River is heard.
The lights fade.
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