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                                   MAN
                         Have you ever been so in love that
                         this person consumes your whole
                         world?  Your whole brain?  That
                         every thought you think and every
                         thing you see revolves around her? 
                         That's how it is with me and Ilene. 
                         She's the most beautiful, smart,
                         funny, kind, sexiest, brightest,
                         wise, sexiest girl in the world.  I
                         just love her.  I mean, I really
                         love her.  All day, all I think
                         about.  Ilene.  I know she didn't
                         mean it when she said she doesn't
                         want to see me again.  She says she
                         doesn't want to be in a
                         relationship.  I know she's just
                         scared of her feelings for me.  She
                         says that I call her at home too
                         much, that I visit her at work,
                         Hooters right smack in downtown
                         Duluth-way too much.  She says that
                         every time she turns around, I'm
                         there.  Sometimes, I like to just
                         show up with flowers or Pooh bears,
                         which she loves.  I know it
                         embarrasses her, but she really
                         loves Pooh bears.
                             (pause)
                         But I didn't get it.  I know that
                         she's in love with me too.  She
                         wouldn't have gone out with me
                         those two and a half weeks if she
                         wasn't, right?  So I told my buddy,
                         Eric, he's this guy I work with
                         down at the Jiffy Lube, about
                         Ilene.  He told me to just fuckin'
                         forget her.  He says if I'm horny,
                         I should go out and rent some
                         porno's.  That idiot.  He's got no
                         idea how special Ilene is. 
                         Besides, none of those girls in
                         those videos compare to her.  I
                         mean, she's all I can see.  So
                         tonight, I was just driving by and
                         I saw that her light was on.  I
                         have this bracelet that I brought
                         for her before she broke...before
                         we talked.
                             (holds a small jewelry
                              box)
                         It's one of these bracelets that
                         has her name written in script on
                         it.  Ever see one of those?  Girls
                         love 'em.  So I thought, why not
                         stop by, since she's awake.  I
                         thought she'd really like that.  So
                         I go to her door and I'm about to
                         knock and I hear giggling.  She's
                         home...and I couldn't believe it! 
                         They're listening to Super Tramp! 
                         "Give A Little Bit" was like our
                         song, ya know?  I've never been so
                         mad.  Except that one time I caught
                         Maureen, my ex, with another guy. 
                         But she was a slut!  I knew that
                         she was when I broke the door door
                         down and she screamed and I saw his
                         big, fuzzy ass on top of
                         her...Never mind that.  It's behind
                         me now.  And Maureen was NOT at all
                         like Ilene.  I know she's not a
                         slut.  I don't want to be angry at
                         her.  It's probably just a friend,
                         or something.  I'm not sure.  But I
                         know she'll tell me.  So I'll just
                         wait.  He'll leave.  And she'll
                         tell me.  I just have to wait. 
                         Right?
                         He turns, as if looking at the
                         house.  The song "I Don't know
                         Enough About You" by Peggy Lee is
                         heard.  The lights fade.
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