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                                   ANDY
                         No, not rad.  Not in a blue leisure
                         suit.  Not rad at all.  I was
                         scared shitless.  But excited.  I
                         could feel this exhilaration in my
                         gut, but I was too nervous to enjoy
                         it.  All I could see were these men
                         looking at me.  I'd quickly turn
                         away, pretend not to notice, stare
                         at my feet or into space,or pull
                         Diane closer to me like a human
                         shield.
                             (slight pause)
                         She was having a blast.  She was
                         learning how to twirl a fan from
                         the queen next to her.  Then I had
                         to go take a leak.  I worked my way
                         through the crowded room without
                         looking up nor making eye contact
                         what so ever.
                             (slight pause)
                         I got to the bathroom, did my
                         business and was about to leave.  I
                         heard a noise.  It was so dark in
                         there that at first I thought I was
                         just seeing things.  There, in a
                         corner, were three men.  Having
                         sex.  One had his pants around his
                         ankles, and the other two had their
                         hard-on's sticking out of the fly
                         of their 501 jeans.
                             (slight pause)
                         I know it sounds like something out
                         of Honcho magazine.  But it was
                         this...careless, wild, passionate
                         sex.

                                   KIEL
                         Sounds kinky.

                                   ANDY
                         I had never seen anything like this
                         before.  I was paralyzed.  I
                         couldn't move.  It was the first
                         time that I felt fear and lust at
                         the same time.  I wanted to turn
                         and get the hell out of there, but
                         it was like someone was making me
                         watch.  All of a sudden, this guy
                         with the most intense blue eyes I
                         had ever seen was two inches from
                         my face.  Staring hard at me. 
                         It seemed liked we looked into each
                         other for a very long time.  But
                         then, the moment he touched me, the
                         spell was broken.
                             (slight pause.  Music
                              stops.  Lights stay dim)
                         I turned and walked out.
                             (slight pause)
                         Every waking moment after that
                         night was pulling me right back to
                         feelings that I had for men all
                         those years.  I went back there the
                         next weekend.  By myself.
                             (slight pause)
                         It also turned out that Diane had
                         known about that place before that
                         night.  She also knew something
                         that I didn't.  About myself.

               The disco light stops.  Andy then slowly looks over his
               shoulder and sees Peter and Kiel with blank expressions,
               Horace with an endearing smile.